The blog on creativity, narcissism and energy got me and some of you into an interesting discourse.

Cannot stop thinking about it now: Is a person an open or closed system?   Is psychological energy fixed, as I assumed based on my observations, or not?

Here are more of my insights, thankfully generated by your comments.

The issue of narcissism is only confusing the discussion. Narcissism as a concept has emotional baggage to it so it is fogging the discourse, rather than helping us understand what is going on.

What is worth focusing on is: is a person open or closed system? Thus, does creativity add or use energy?

Mirko says in his comments to this blog, and he should know, he has a PhD in nuclear physics, that only the Universe is a closed system. Within this Universe, everything alive is an open system. We as people ARE open system by definition because we interact with everything surrounding us.

Ok. I agree.

But I do know from experience that my energy is fixed. I get exhausted after days work, trying to convince a bunch of executives that there is a need for them to change.

So am I a closed or open system?

It all has to do, I think, with PAEI.

(P) uses energy.  Any doubts?

(A) tries to conserve energy. That is its purpose of existence.

Aha, (E) goes both ways. It can use energy, it can add energy.

How come?

It depends if there is (I).

When coupled with (I), it adds energy.

(E) alone and (I) alone use energy.

A person can be open or /and a closed system depends on whether there is (I) or not with the subject involved with.

This is complicated because I am saying that a person is NEITHER open nor a closed system. He or she is both, depending on how the creator relates to the subject being created.

Take me for instance.

When I lecture I create while lecturing. As I watch the audience and wonder what it is they are struggling with, I co-create with them. At the end of the lecture, while physically exhausted, I am psychologically up and energized. I have problems falling asleep; thereafter, I am so high.

The same phenomena one can see with performing artists. They get energy from the audience.  They are high at the end of the performance although exhausted physically.

On the other hand, if I have a bad audience, I am so exhausted at the end of the lecture that I turn, not literally, suicidal. I want to die and disappear from the face of the earth.

What is going on?

The insight I got reading the comments about the previous blogs is that whether we get or lose energy, whether we are open or closed system, depends on (I).

And ultimate (I) is love.

I get energy in my lectures, creating as I go along lecturing, if I love my audience and if I feel the love of the audience towards me.  Also do I love or hate the subject I am lecturing about.

Love gives energy. The more you give the more you have.  Does not a nice genuine hug from a person you truly love give you energy. It actually heals.

How about hate? You feel very energized when angry and hateful but notice that when it is over, you feel totally exhausted. Wasted. Hate uses energy. It focuses it and than uses it in a burst.

Love is like a potion, like watering of a plant. It fills you up. (When you love and are loved you actually feel how your heart fills up. It widens your chest. )

So, does creativity add energy or use energy? Back to the question.

It depends. How much do you love the subject you are creating? How much do you love the people you are creating with? (Love = absolute integration= absolute mutual trust and respect, which means: do you trust and respect those you are co-creating with?)

In one of my earlier works, I define art not as what it is but what it does. If it enriches the viewer, it is art. If it does not, it is not.  Thus, what is art is a totally subjective decision.

I remember watching LA Boheme at the Metropolitan Opera. I had the house seats, which are the best you can get. (You get different energy from a performance depending where you sit.) It was the best performance of La Boheme I ever attended. I cried. I was high for weeks; thereafter, I performed better as a consultant. I had more energy that I can remember.

Same thing with paintings. I got turned on by a painting I saw by Suttin. It energized me. A good piece of art energizes viewers for generations to come. Thus, art is ageless.

So is energy fixed?

As we create, energy gets used.  It is used for the creation itself, and can be wasted on interruptions and interferences that take energy away. That is what creative people try to eliminate and thus are considered narcissistic, Prima Donnas, with various degrees of intensity.

If there is love involved OF the subject and/or of those we co-create with, energy is added, not diminished.  (I) makes us open. Without (I), (E) is a closed system.

Does this now make sense?